Well, for the first time in 10 almost 11 years I am pregnant and there is really nothing going on. The adhesion's that I have had over the years of surgery and our last section are starting to tear, not fun, this does create some concern for me. Last time I had to use medications it was so bad, this time I am just sort of working through it. It does involve getting irritable and crabby and having to lay down a bit more than I have time for, but I am really trying to go with no medications at all this pregnancy. The sharp pains and lingering soreness does strike panic in me though. I have picked the phone up three times since last night to call and ask "do you think this is okay?", but put it down all three times, because I know it is probably the adhesion's. I really wish that I could feel the babies move by now, there are moments but with the adhesion's and the continued numbness from the last surgery...I doubt I will fill them anytime soon.
We go to the doctors this coming Tuesday. Seems like for ever, it is the whimpy one, the weigh, pee, measure, that will be twenty bucks please doctor. We don't go to the ultrasound doctor until the 11th. It is my birthday and what a great present that will be...if all is still well. On my birthday two years ago we confirmed Aubrey's condition, well two days before but it pretty much changed that days for ever.
I'm starting to get a bit freaked out that we will be bringing two babies home. I think that survival thing in me was telling me wait and see, and you lucky if you get one... I think I am really starting to believe this is going to happen...
The money part of having three children under two is getting a little scary, we will do it, we always manage but it is a bit scary too. Once you have one, the reality of what goes with a child comes into play far before all the ooohhhh and ahhhhs, for us at least.
So here is to a very uneventful month, other than some bloating...ahhh, gotta love those pregnancy fluid retentive days....
I notice that I didn't put on here what we are in need of prayer wise...well, we need prayers that theses two babies get here safely, that I can continue to go medication free, that we are able to persuade Anneleise that siblings are good, and we are able to remain financially stable as we prepare for the babies arrival. You asked.
March 28, 2008
March 17, 2008
March 14, 2008
All in the day of a miracle!
Just by the title of the post, can you hardly imagine it?
We can't, but will take it!
Our visit was the best ever. The doctor came in to the room with tears in her eyes, I thought to myself, Oh, NO. Here we go. But she instead just gave me a huge hug and said, "Call it what you want but everything is perfect."
We have two brains, hold the fluid. Two everything except for hands and feet and fingers and toes. Everything is where it was to be and to their surprised they were able to get great pictures of the hearts and there are four chambers each, and good flow. No signs of heart problems yet. They saw the three veins in the cords and out of the placenta to the babies.
They also discovered that in fact we could have possibly had a set of identical twins in the making the due to a "fluid" sac seen again since conception, it was originally seen the first weeks of our IVF however it shrank and we didn't think again of it. It has now grown and though could cause an issue later down the road is not a issue now. Today the moment is where we live so we are taking that. My head did spin in the thoughts that we would have had triplets, and I really was going to put three eggs back but at the last minute went with two because the doctor was very clear of the possibility that the two were in good shape and could in fact split.
The other discovery is that the placentas have appeared to stuck together, rather they have completely fused we don't know but will have more on that at our next level 2 ultrasound on April, 11th. Kick in the pants is that is my birth day and the week that we got the definite diagnosis on Aubrey.
We are going to get echo's on the babies in May also.
I don't know where this will take us, but I do know that the Lord fixed this issue with the nuchal cord. It is now normal and they both looked amazing.
The greatest gift we received today was that our hope was restored and it couldn't have come a minute to soon.
The other bit of info we received is that we know for sure that baby a is a girl from the CVS done three weeks ago, but she is taking a guess and leaning towards girl for baby b also!
What do we think of two girls...we haven't stop smiling!
Pictures will be coming soon of the babies. Baby a is just where Anneleise was and baby b is laying just like Aubrey. It was very dejavue today.
~just a thought...but is spell check down again?...it's saying no spelling errors but some words just don't look right.~
We can't, but will take it!
Our visit was the best ever. The doctor came in to the room with tears in her eyes, I thought to myself, Oh, NO. Here we go. But she instead just gave me a huge hug and said, "Call it what you want but everything is perfect."
We have two brains, hold the fluid. Two everything except for hands and feet and fingers and toes. Everything is where it was to be and to their surprised they were able to get great pictures of the hearts and there are four chambers each, and good flow. No signs of heart problems yet. They saw the three veins in the cords and out of the placenta to the babies.
They also discovered that in fact we could have possibly had a set of identical twins in the making the due to a "fluid" sac seen again since conception, it was originally seen the first weeks of our IVF however it shrank and we didn't think again of it. It has now grown and though could cause an issue later down the road is not a issue now. Today the moment is where we live so we are taking that. My head did spin in the thoughts that we would have had triplets, and I really was going to put three eggs back but at the last minute went with two because the doctor was very clear of the possibility that the two were in good shape and could in fact split.
The other discovery is that the placentas have appeared to stuck together, rather they have completely fused we don't know but will have more on that at our next level 2 ultrasound on April, 11th. Kick in the pants is that is my birth day and the week that we got the definite diagnosis on Aubrey.
We are going to get echo's on the babies in May also.
I don't know where this will take us, but I do know that the Lord fixed this issue with the nuchal cord. It is now normal and they both looked amazing.
The greatest gift we received today was that our hope was restored and it couldn't have come a minute to soon.
The other bit of info we received is that we know for sure that baby a is a girl from the CVS done three weeks ago, but she is taking a guess and leaning towards girl for baby b also!
What do we think of two girls...we haven't stop smiling!
Pictures will be coming soon of the babies. Baby a is just where Anneleise was and baby b is laying just like Aubrey. It was very dejavue today.
~just a thought...but is spell check down again?...it's saying no spelling errors but some words just don't look right.~
March 13, 2008
Another long night.
Yep! It's that time again, a doctors appointment in the morning. Part of me is so excited to see them again, then the other part of me is will they see what the problem is with our baby girl ~ a.
Just like in the past, I should be full of joy, after all there is baby b. But as repeated in history, bittersweet is only good for chocolate.
So I have not gotten more than 3-4 hours of sleep over the past two weeks due to nightmares. One night was the baby didn't have a brain, the other was no kidneys, the other was only one vein in the cord and brain injury... after i try to go back to sleep I just can't, I'm really just too upset. Right now I am so tired I feel sick and weak.
I pray that the appointment in the morning will help much of this, the other shoe goes ahead and drop if it needs too and I can get to a place in the pregnancy where for a short while I can sleep and embrace this miracle, our pregnancy and our babies.
And by the way , yes we need a lot of prayers for the babies.
Just like in the past, I should be full of joy, after all there is baby b. But as repeated in history, bittersweet is only good for chocolate.
So I have not gotten more than 3-4 hours of sleep over the past two weeks due to nightmares. One night was the baby didn't have a brain, the other was no kidneys, the other was only one vein in the cord and brain injury... after i try to go back to sleep I just can't, I'm really just too upset. Right now I am so tired I feel sick and weak.
I pray that the appointment in the morning will help much of this, the other shoe goes ahead and drop if it needs too and I can get to a place in the pregnancy where for a short while I can sleep and embrace this miracle, our pregnancy and our babies.
And by the way , yes we need a lot of prayers for the babies.
March 06, 2008
The hokey pokey...
That's what it's all about...
Well for right now that is. Yeah, I know for sure I felt a baby move tonight. I was getting all giddy about the results of Project Runway, the mist of the movie on Life Time "The Good Witch" and George Lopez and there it was.
I was waiting to see if I could feel two separate movements...I can't say that I did, but then half of my stomach is still numb from my section 2 years ago, so I will remain hopeful that all is well in there, and I felt one move because it was trying to get away from the other!
I smiled for the first time in a week I think, I have of course caught another cold and have spent many nights coughing and sneezing. No one will ever convince me that I have a incompetent cervix that is for sure, if those two little ones are still there after this cold, then they are staying in there!
By the way we don't know anything about baby "b", we didn't have to do the testing as of yet but we do know from the cvs that "a" is a girl. Yeah, that was one of the other last times I smiled.
Clocks ticking, 7 days from tomorrow to we see them again...what will I do with the time...?
By the way if anyone has been wondering if they can help us in any way. Pray for the babies that they make through this and that I can give them whatthey need while I carry them and as I raise them. Just pray,pray, pray.
Well for right now that is. Yeah, I know for sure I felt a baby move tonight. I was getting all giddy about the results of Project Runway, the mist of the movie on Life Time "The Good Witch" and George Lopez and there it was.
I was waiting to see if I could feel two separate movements...I can't say that I did, but then half of my stomach is still numb from my section 2 years ago, so I will remain hopeful that all is well in there, and I felt one move because it was trying to get away from the other!
I smiled for the first time in a week I think, I have of course caught another cold and have spent many nights coughing and sneezing. No one will ever convince me that I have a incompetent cervix that is for sure, if those two little ones are still there after this cold, then they are staying in there!
By the way we don't know anything about baby "b", we didn't have to do the testing as of yet but we do know from the cvs that "a" is a girl. Yeah, that was one of the other last times I smiled.
Clocks ticking, 7 days from tomorrow to we see them again...what will I do with the time...?
By the way if anyone has been wondering if they can help us in any way. Pray for the babies that they make through this and that I can give them whatthey need while I carry them and as I raise them. Just pray,pray, pray.
March 04, 2008
Christmas list?
Is it too early to start a Christmas list?
See usually we start very early saving and buying those great bargains, but since the girls and this pregnancy...ugh, we will be modifying Christmas this year.
See usually we start very early saving and buying those great bargains, but since the girls and this pregnancy...ugh, we will be modifying Christmas this year.
The real purpose of this post, this thought?
Hint.
I want a ultrasound machine for Christmas...Christmas in July...Christmas this week!
I really do have an addiction to ultrasounds. I guess most women do since I have been asking around.
It just hit me...this is normal...Oh, my I am normal!
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